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Yesterday I finally got my tattoo. It took me five months to convince my mom and I was now on the edge between: I really want it and I am really scared!!
I have it on the inside of my left wrist and it says "Papa". Dutch word for Daddy, even though some English speaking people also use it. The tattoo contains his ashes, so that makes it even more special.
It did hurt, won't lie about that. I used some kind of ointment that would numb the skin, well that didn't work..... It did work for my mom, so that was weird xD
I will upload a picture (if there is any interest in it, I mean it is just a tattoo...) after it has healed and that will take another 2 weeks or so.

Hope y'all have a good time!!

xoxo

Seven months ago I got dumped, me getting dumped it's a first But something wonderful happened the week before that, I met a guy. I kinda felt like a slut, because I just got dumped and instantly liked another guy.
We started dating and about a month later I allowed myself to actually fall for a guy again, all the way. My ex dumped me on the grounds: I never loved you and I don't even really like you. So I was afraid this would be the same.
Five weeks after that my dad died. He went into the hospital on Wednesday and he died on Friday morning, 8.30 on the 1st of June.
The previous four months were weird.
Last week it was my birthday, I turned 19 without my daddy. It was a nice day, with not so bad weather but he wasn't there. Tomorrow it his birthday, he would've become 44 years old, but he will stay 43 for the rest of my life. He will never become any older, he will always stay that age and I will become older then him eventually.

Live is a bitch and it f*cks you over and over again. And when you finally think: live stopped f*cking me and I am actually happy. Live will start f*cking you again and it will keep f*cking you until you're dead. And then it will stop because it doesn't like necrophilia.......

Hi y'all,

I know that I haven't been online that much, but even when I don't comment on your stuff doesn't mean that I haven't seen it

I hope that you all are having a great time and for the Dutchies out there I hope that you have a great Springbreak this week or next week!!!!

My live is changing bit by bit here. I stopped with my education because: 1) it was just to hard 2) it was just plain boring. So since the first of Febuary I have been working, still not fulltime though because my job doesn't have any work for me and other jobs don't want me For the Dutchies out there that live near me:  do you know someplace where they are searching for employee for during the day? I am fulltime available except on Saturday and Sunday!

Monday me and my boy are together for a month, shocking He is great and to be honest he is the first boy that I really love, I know that sounds harsh but he is just to amazing to describe

I haven't got anything more to describe, but you'll probably see some more art from me in the upcoming weeks because I have nothing else to do -.-'

Have a nice time yáll!!

I have been searching for art on DA for the past few days, nothing special just checking out what is new.
But I noticed that there is more and more naked pictures on DA, I do not think that naked is bad and that naked pictures aren't beautiful, because some pictures are marvellous. But these pictures are over the top, showing almost the inside of a girls special spot and with a lot of SM.
If people want to make these pictures fine, but please I can't look at a page, browsing randomly without at least 5 of these pictures and it drives me insane.
It makes DA look tacky to be honest.


Don't shoot me if you don't agree, this is how I think about it and I have the right to express my opinion.

Two weeks ago, on the 16th of June in the year 2011, I got a call from my teacher, telling me I hadn't graduate. That wasn't a big smack in the face to be honest, because I had a 5,2 for dutch, a 4,5 for math, a 4,7 for physics and a 4,5 for chemistry and I had these grades before I started with the central school exams.
I passed for math, because on my exams I got a 7,5. 4,5+7,5=12, 12/2=6. So a 6 is good. But then the other three subjects
I've got a 4,3 for physics (4,3+4,7=9 , 9/2=4,5 (this makes a 5)) and a 5,7 for chemistry (4,5+5,7=10,2 , 10,2/2=5,1 (this makes a 5)) and a 5,5 for dutch (5,2+5,5=10,7 , 10,7/2=5,4 (this makes a 5)).
We have a limit of 2 fives or a four and a five to graduate. I got 3 fives.

So the conclusion was that I had to do one of the three subjects again, with a re-examination. We have a limit of 1. So I did that re-examination for dutch.

After a week thinking about what my grade would be (I thought that I had f***ed it up) I got a call yesterdag from my dutch teacher. I needed a 5,8 to graduate and guess what? I got a 6,3!!
So yes ladies and gentlemen, this means that I graduated from highschool!!!!!

So college here I come!!!!


XxxMairdread